Jacelyn

2010-02-22T20:03:00.004+08:00

for some reason we talk about her again

he said he dont know wants to go prawning on sat or not?

because that bloody shit gonna bring her go and i never answer him back.

and he said with some anger: now i told you i dont want see her ,not say her so dont attitude.

then i answer back ,not that you dont wants to see her its that you dont want see her with that shit.

damn shit i just forgotten the next minutes whats his answer was.

but i still remember he got say you think only you dont want see her

i also dont want to see her.

What's the point.

so what if you see her,i mean why you doesnt wants to see her so much.

i couldnt understand why you doesnt wants to see her so much

but I also couldnt accept that you wanna see her.

isit that I could just forget it?

2010-02-21T17:37:00.005+08:00

12-02 friday

taken half day,night time when work with bii till 11 something
then home bath le when to watch movie" su qi er"
till 2 a.m. when to prata house meet andrew and Bobbi.
then to yishun dam till morning.

13-02 saturday
sleep for a few hours then mummy make "ngoh hiang"
and I bring over to bii house for reunion dinner(lunch)
I have been saying i wanted watch "BIG soldier small general"
and evening we when to watch.

14- 02 sunday

Its first day of new year.
till bii came back he cook fried rice .

15-02 monday
the two pig sleep till the late noon

when kovan play arcade in the afternoon then back home.
then bii sent me home, when his still coming straight in the carpark i saw their lorry
and I say they are behind.The funnist things is he stop and I when down.
I said put me down here faster go.hahas.
because he never when chu shi, ahbee will scold.
but he said nevermind,so I go up again and he ride in my house car-park.
and two lorry facing each other, ahbee standing infront of the lorry
some standing on the lorry
at that moment, everyone turns and look at us ,
so funny.shit and I saw her.

16-02 tuesday

when to lavender food court eat and meet up
then to hougang plaza play billard,
bii , $$ 50 dollar just fly like this.

17-02 wednesday

he's back to camp, when hougang point with mama
then when he came back when to tanjong bakar take mc
the doctor there was like crazy, speaking & laugh like gay.

and he give 3 day mc anyhow.
then when hougang point again for dinner.

18-02 thursday

sleep till evening then had dinner with mama at 631
afterthat when home and sew bii jean to skinny and shorter.
then when to ah heng
due to I gonna work the next day , bii sent me home
and he when back ah heng and meet up then to prawning.
I didnt know what happen...
but I couldnt fall asleep ,
Im I fearing that she will be going?
I didnt know.
without any sleep I when to work and bii came back at 5am.

2010-02-11T20:03:00.007+08:00

5-2-2010

take half day leave
when bugis with him for shopping.
we train there.ohoh

forget about it.

till night when to ah heng gather with his friend then when to liang court

to discuss about yehou shirts.

6-2-2010

night time when to amk mac ,

then gather with ham , andrew & kenneth

then when prawning with ah heng ,andrew and kenneth till morning.

we brought the pinky prawning rod.hahas

bii still said wanted cook the prawn together.

7-2-2010

till he wake up ,when to buy 4d then to bugis again

cause his pant needed change

walk around here and there to find his jean.

finally.

9-2-2010
mama cooked the prawn for us.
huhu.his favourite cereal prawn.

2010-02-04T19:41:00.003+08:00

friday night meet our old places
i take lift and it open at 7
everyone was there standing at the staircase
every pair of eyes stare at me
I heard someone calling his name
& I saw "him" .
At that moment , I press the door closing button
he dash out and put his hand throught the closing door
lucky there's sensor
the door open again...
I scold him CRAZY.
Thats him , so cute .

saturday he went to fix his bike till 4 pm then came fetch me to eat
when to eat pasar malam then homed.
night time when to find him ,
i found out he forgotten to bring along my helmet.
and he bluff me
finish work , when home take doraemon and when to east coast catchs bear
Finally , he gotten his most wanted doremon clock
but spend almost hundred and sacrifice my pink doraemon
and and and almost he wanted bet away my melody too.
HUMP!!
till left only 20 something when to eat at hk cafe.
then home watch "zhu ge liang" video till 5 am then sleep.

the next day when to yishun to sell his bikey thing then when to eat seoul garden.
till very very full.

2010-01-28T19:48:00.002+08:00

I remember monday night.
He carry me home.
That moment, I hope it wont be gone.
At least not too soon please if it doesnt be forever.
Let me feel it longer .

2010-01-26T20:47:00.004+08:00

原谅我没有说

on friday,

someone from afternoon 2pm sleep till night 11pm

Actually going malaysia during mignight 12 but end up never go

then mignight 1am we ride to chinatown to have porridge & "yu sheng"

then to ah heng till 4am.

and we only left 3 hour to sleep.

He's having duty on saturday.

Such a lonely day.

bring mum's to have the porridge we ate last night and when to see "open light"

shop till mignight then reach home.

and someone is so lonely at camp .

Reaching home is so sickening.

Because I see her , damn fucking piss off.

Lucky he wasnt around.

I dont know why , but justs dont wanna see her at all.

Please dont LET me see her again please.

Its really sickening.

sunday he wait till I wake up

his brother drive us to take his repaired cpu

then we when to "Ah boy" to buy our helmet.

Dot Novo gonna cost us $85.

OH MY GOD.

We didnt brought any and when home.

that's our sunday night.

2010-01-18T20:03:00.000+08:00

saturday ,

dearest is so sweet , bring fried sauce noodle for me

then we when to wash bikey at hougang green mutiple storage car-park

using fire host.hoho

after washing & waxing so shiny!

then went home to bath then down to thai disco.

they wanted chop robert actually.

but end up never.

we play pool then go in disco awhile.

never drink at all.

hen cabbed home.

yesterday , when to catch prawn.

then our dinner is prawn prawn prawn.

im getting tired to work already.

i wish i can play every single day.

but too bad ,CANT!.

2010-01-13T21:14:00.001+08:00

last friday when to east coast if im not wrong
to catch bear of course.
but didnt catch anything .
I discover I've no time for com alrd.
but i still wanted write down everything
to remember everything we did.

last saturday dearest cooked dinner for me
the fried rice.
Super nice ,I swear
Mummy say so too.
after that going rounding but end up boom then we boom them back.
then went hougang plaza play pool then see dearest play lan till 4AM.
Went home cause I couldnt make it alrd.

Sunday, when to plaza eat hot plate pepper steak,super nice
then when to his mum shop for dinner .

2010-01-06T19:53:00.003+08:00

I was damn sad last night.

I bring my courage and I told you.

And you thought thats the reason.

But its not.

You apologise but its not your fault at all.

You dont get it but you said you do

Again, you dont but you say you do.

Never had I speak his name again.

Never infront of you

So never speak her's.

2010-01-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

the last day of 2009,

went comp comp to have dinner then to ah heng there.

then meet his friend for prawn catching.

Too bad , too many people and change location to east coast.

there to catch Bear's.

Catch a doraemon and we ride home which the doraemon sits in the middle.

I remember when the clock strike 12, we are outside the Jr clas looking for parking lot.

hahas.

saturday after work he came fetch me and lunched at amk s11.

then home and night we started off to batam ship cruise with mummy.

Like I said we're always lucky.

we earn money.

We always got lucky when we tried thing that we first did.

like 4d and now jackpot draw.

Super Lucky.

2009-12-29T19:56:00.005+08:00

saturday when to cinneleisure ,wanted to watch bodyguard assasin but got to wait till 3 am so when off to Hong kong cafe and back to sleep till morning ,camp called then he remember he got to stay back. Which mean he wont be back tonight.Whose knows he gave such a susprise. when I was just about to bath he ask me to go downstair during evening.And make him wait till I bath finish. Now I've learn to heard that he's here. Then when to amk to watch "bodyguard assasin".

Last night when toa payoh to intro "cai" to his friend but that "cai" to him is not a "cai"
then too bad.all my girlfriend they cant accept.

Today gonna be a lonely night , he's back in camp and not gonna come back.
And I cant go malaysia with him tomorrow.
The shit dont let me apply 1/2 day leave at all. So sad.
he said he gonna do for me,same as him
Im so waiting for it. white and red .

2009-12-27T11:57:00.002+08:00

為何像夢一樣,一點也不真實

這麼了?
我們都在提起往事 ,
這麼一樣的情節又再一次發生
每當你提起她時,你是否發現有什麼不同?
為什麼眼神中還帶著溫柔
為何沒發現我臉上想對你說的
別說我還會想他,我對他沒有一絲的想念
從你牽我手的那一天,我不再去想他
畢竟兩年了,你們才兩個月
你像你說的,沒感覺了嗎?

因為他,我的要求更高
那些該死的溫柔都拿來比較
我很努力想做到最好, 但你感覺到了嗎?
其實我超害怕再次失去
超害怕的...

但我該如何才能牽著你不放手呢?
因為我好累, 不能對我公平一次嗎?

2009-12-25T18:59:00.005+08:00

魔鬼天使, 夜火 ,Everton

East Coast Park, Labrador Park, Yishun Dam

2009-12-23T19:59:00.000+08:00

I Cant wait for tmr nights rounding!! HUHU=))

2009-12-22T19:46:00.002+08:00

你说的话我都相信
说得好听说得甜蜜
你说的每一句我都相信
为了爱情失了聪明

听你的话闭上眼睛
这个梦多美丽
让它继续你说的话总那么好听
你爱不爱我不能确定
也许你只把他当游戏
我却爱得太用力

he ask me to listen

he sing for me at night

2009-12-21T20:02:00.003+08:00

COOL~

friday when to bedok jetty eat and when to catch bear.

gotcha a elmo & melody .

saturday night when to eat supper at comp comp

then eat "flolick" while waiting for kenneth and hamster.

someone bring his ex-gf there,fucker!!

then went to bugis find andrew then to marina barrier

then when to yishun dam till morning.

After that night ,everything is ruined

as if she my ex-bf and I got that reaction.

Because I fear thats why I did before you do.

I fear when you saw her , you let go everything

but i happen to react as if I saw my ex-bf.

the wrong reaction that I treat you like stranger.

But I believe every girl will do this ,

But because Im a girl because I fear I miss out a thing.

I fear I lost the only thing and I just remain here saying nothing

I didnt utter a damn word

what to do?

2009-12-14T19:24:00.003+08:00

因為

因為擁有快樂是那麼的困難
因為擁有了還得承受失去
因為我已經害怕面對事實
因為我害怕聽見不想聽的

幸福與快樂還差幾步?

2009-11-16T19:27:00.001+08:00

FALL FOR YOU .

2009-11-12T20:52:00.000+08:00

爱到深处才说并不适合

有了我你却更寂寞

付出太多换回什么

泪水是唯一的收获

想要解脱情却像个漩涡

在分与不分之间受尽折磨

明知这是一个错我还是一错再错

只剩半句承诺剩我一人执着

无缘的人无缘的疼无缘的伤痕

最爱的人偏偏却是不该爱的人

无心的人无心的魂无心的吻

最爱的人偏偏却是不懂爱的人

2009-11-11T21:56:00.002+08:00

It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else,
but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.
(facebk quote).

2009-11-08T17:16:00.001+08:00

本來說想傳個簡訊給他
但我想應該別打擾人家好

2009-11-05T21:11:00.005+08:00

I heard something.
something that I almost cant swallow.
something that I just hope I could see you just one more time.
something that I just hope you could gave a chance for me to speak a word.
But this is the time , I got to say I lost this chance.

You are someone who know me best,
So I hope you'll know whats my mind talking
if ever again you think of me , this is the word I wanted to tell.
A very simple word.I hope you know it.

2009-11-01T00:46:00.007+08:00

from city hall walk to bugis junction for 翡翠小廚

saw a pink knitted hat.
I ask yang jie to knit one for me in my fav white.
and im going to learn knitting.huhu

after that train down to geylang for steamboat.

waited an hour in the control station for the rain to stop

i remember the first time which is last time I when to eat
麻辣火鍋 is with baima.which is almost 2 years ago.

then mum's & mr.neighbour mum's and others come down and they when to

大長今.

2009-10-30T19:41:00.005+08:00

只夠相會 , 不夠相守

第一次 , 把一本書讀完
"邂垢貝殼花"
這句話是相愛卻不能愛,女方對男方說的
男生,
你是我最愛的人,其她人只是其次.

我知道,很肯定的是,她將會是你的一生
我等待著一場邂垢,像我們曾經一樣,
但,像我這樣的女生,還會有誰來保護能?

2009-10-23T20:12:00.002+08:00

心的距离

so cute isnt it ?

试着看见让时间倒转回到从前

每次退后又错过你的世界一点
我没有办法清醒应付新的对决
你却轻易让我的心委屈到极限
爱有了你却失去了我的一切

2009-10-22T19:41:00.010+08:00

Appreciate or De-Appreciate
someone said this oh! funny

Know why Xiao Yan. ?
Because someone created the "Xiao Family"

2009-10-20T21:09:00.005+08:00

回到最初

能不能回到最初棉花糖在手中简单的笑容

回到最初再也梦不到的梦

回到最初最晴朗最开阔的天空

伴着摩天轮看着彩虹

2009-10-18T20:11:00.007+08:00

Life Light's

2009-10-17T17:49:00.004+08:00

That Moment's

I dont remember but I cant forget that night.
Once that you finally keep your words.
And being so close i remember.
You're always fierce like before , going on a fight for brotherhood.
And everytime I look into your eyes , you show that look.

2009-10-16T21:52:00.009+08:00

CONFUSED ?

Last night , was messaging someone. Till he said ,ask me out when you're free. Then I said not you ask me mahs? And he said ,supper later.Which will be 11 something. But end up didnt , he cant. Tomorrow is holidays~HUHU
And I hope's I could sleep till noon which is impossible. Cause sleeping routine of my changed.Was messaging and calling the whole afternoon, where to spend tomorrow night.

And now , while I was thinking what to say. Someone , which names finally appear on my phone,send me a message.And ask , did I message his friend , No of course.Did he message me , same as you , no. I know what a answer I gave , but that's true anyway. But I ask him why , he will always say : ask only.

Because , you always likes to make me confuse like nobody do. Just to ask this , was it that important ? It seems that you hope to.He will message me more than you d0. Even if I said this was your concern , concerning about how we going on .But my mind was telling me , you must have been unhappy with it. You could just ask him about it but you didnt.But its telling me again , you just cant shows him what you wants to ask about.I think I get upset if this act is to show that ,which I said in the previous post.But I can tell you , you can just stop it , because its no use to me.And my mind lie again.

Someone I trust shouldnt have such ideas . But that one's I trust is still you.But please imagine when I slowing lost the trust in you.

After that , he called just to said I didnt reply his message but I did. Agains .

2009-10-14T21:01:00.003+08:00

Call me because I miss you !

No money left for the rest of the day till salary day.

My last was lented away.

How to survive ?

I wonder what's going on , as he need it so urgently

Dont tell me its because~ , oh no.

He'll kill me if he saw this , better not said.

Tonight will be a good " good night~

2009-10-13T21:21:00.003+08:00

LAST EVER .

Seriously , we wont get to see each other anymore.

cause , if this is the better way

then i've got nothing to say.

Because I trust this friends the most .

I'm being naughty , what if I disobey his words?

I know he wont talk to me no more ,that's him.

2009-10-11T15:09:00.002+08:00

或許人生就是如此
本來想說在這,說我想對你說的
但是說了你又不會再看了
但,如果還有那麼一次機會,

或許你不太記得我了,
但要記得這一句,
記得我的名字,
記得你常喊我的時候

就像當初,你說我們還會是好朋友一樣
但,我卻忘了問你
如果是這種情況呢,我們還是嗎?

說真的,我從來不曾怪過你
只是會想,你這麼跟以前的你不一樣了
以前啊,你都會說到做到的,但.
不重要了.
只是到最後,我無法看著你的眼神
和你說聲,保重

2009-10-10T14:17:00.004+08:00

Meeted Edmund last night,and accompany him to buy pants.

And when to "sumo house" for dinner.

Today,after work.Meet him again at city hall and travel to Bugis to meet

Lc,HL and her Bf.

And "Long john" for lunch.

And wasted of time travel to city hall again.As Bugis dont have K-Box.

In the mean while , I recieve his message.

Huhu!

But , he said he forgotten about what our last conversation was.

Not important alrd.

Reach k-box at 3 something and I alone rush back to hougang at 6.

Spented almost 20 dollar on cab fare.

And its because we're having a dinner with SLG at 7pm.

Waited at their house

Yet, I knew they still spent times till after 7.

they carry their "dragon" downstair

when I reach downstair, cong pass me two stick and

Elvin which is infront holding only one , turn and hold for me

then got car one sit car,got bike one sit bike

and when dont know what place to have dinner.

AND,still sits the same table with HIM!!

And saw my god-daughter "milkbottle"again

alot of dishes till very full

At the end everyone still together take photo

and yet , I and Ber hide so behind

and I still fail to stand beside him.

2009-10-08T11:46:00.008+08:00

When you knew it, you doesnt let me go

you bring me last night so I dont go with others on saturday night

And you wants me to swear.

How sweet of you to said those words,but that wasnt your concern.

But I will still keep my words , last night will be last ever.

You finally ask about it, which Im waiting for long

you finally admit

you said you are not pushing him to me

but you thinks he's a nice guy , but Im not

I told you I trusted you most , Im really damn sad you're doing this

If you wants me to be with him , will you be that happy ?

If it really does I will do it to pls you.

Cause I really dont know how to take my next step,even if I do I still fall down.

I think , I write , my tears never fail to roll down

I wanted to walk away , but how much courage must I have ?

I cry with no tears , scream with no voice.

So tired , Im so tired.

I wish I could stop everything.

Stop my breathing , Stop my heartbeat

I wanted to end , but not mostly because of you.

Dont be thick skin.

Be fair will you ?

Or I justs have to continue pretending

remain our best friend ever?

A answer decides what I'll do next.

2009-10-06T19:24:00.003+08:00

06-10

It looks pretty hard to forget about it.

Or maybe I just didnt bother to.

sometime's I just wonder ,

why must you said something that you cant get it done?

or never did you know , these words is important to others

I just dont get it.

But till now , I think it wasnt as important as before.

this time round you 'll will never turns back,yea

Not every turns back , will get a smile and be forgiven.

2009-10-05T21:20:00.002+08:00

Wait for me , Wait for me to be back with picture's

2009-10-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

If it ain't coming out, we're not going anywhere.

So why can't I just tell you that I care?

Do you catch a breath when i look at you?

Are you holding back like the way i do?

Cos i tried but it isn't going away.

Even though i tried and tried to walk away.

I'm always fail on doing it

Are we just friend? Or is there more?

Trying hard to control my heart.

Cos i know it's impossible.

The invisible barriers will always be there.

At the end of the day, i know i'd only be fooling myself.

Someday, i wondered if you're holding back like the way i do.

Cos even though you're here, you're a world away..

I wished i can tell you what i'm feeling.

But now the truth is out..I can only buried them away.

2009-10-03T23:21:00.001+08:00

Supper Club.

2009-10-02T20:36:00.006+08:00

水連宮

2009-09-29T20:24:00.001+08:00

我一直一直一直哭,
自己總是個傻瓜

為了不讓你為難,我想我選擇離開

2009-09-28T20:12:00.003+08:00

我還是無法決定說還是不說
說了有點為難,
不說又為了那答案難過
到底該說嗎?
我知道是件很小的事
但我就是害怕,他會介紹我給別人
一直想,就越難過
但我怕說了,就無法當好朋友了.

或者是我多心了?

2009-09-27T22:23:00.004+08:00

因為你不會明白,所以我也不懂得如何明白你在想什麼

雖然沒有手心冒汗,
心跳加速,
但,還是會花整夜的時間來陪你
可能就希望,你會多看我幾眼
你的每句話,我都在意
你的每個表情,我都記得
但,只有你的意思
我不會明白

你這麼會以為我害怕和你兩個人
你這麼會不再叫我
不明白,真的很不明白
一會熱情,一會冷淡

2009-09-26T18:49:00.007+08:00

午飯時,你打電來,
問在哪吃飯
然後,你便下來
能見你一下下,
高興了整個下午

到了晚上,一直有種預感
你會帶我出去
的確.
還有你的朋友
我們到了bar,忘了什麼名了
smoking shi-sha-ing
見到你的一位朋友,好像"他"喔
然後,在哪呆到凌晨三點多
HUHU!!
終于能跟他拍照了
然後,又到 EAST COAST 的 Carl's Jr 吃早餐吧
呆到早上五點
還有的是,我待會還得作工.
超夠力的.

早上,他都有打來
問我起來了嗎
傍晚,問我睡夠嗎
但是,他說了這話
想了又想,很可疑!!

我想了又想,很想問你
但還是放棄
你真的真的,在打這注意嗎?
我很難過,哭了
因為,我最討厭朋友,這樣做
就算,你要打發我走
也不要這樣做,好嗎?
雖然你還是會打電話給我,
雖然你還是有小小的關心
但是,你心裡想的又是什麼呢?
我只想,這樣不變
做一輩子的朋友很難嗎?

2009-09-24T16:09:00.004+08:00

你讓他用戒指把你套上的時候
我察覺到你臉上复雜的笑容
我沒有再依戀的借口
我還想等你什么

你緊緊拉住我衣袖
說你一定要想我
你緊緊拉著我的手
像是不會再來過
像是最後一次牽著我的手
給我你最後的溫柔
那些過往,對你來說
變得不算什麼
我假裝成為你的朋友

你的簡訊如此冷漠
你寂寞,要我陪你說
但也成為一種沉默,一種難過
如果,你的目的就是如此
要我跟你朋友走,
我會很難過
.

2009-09-23T20:56:00.004+08:00

你說你自私,放不下兩個
你說你害怕,你害怕他們
你的確自私
非常自私
可能,你真的對她比我好吧
你就是愛逗我

昨天說忙完後,再發簡訊給我
卻沒有
我想,不會回了
各了一天,才回
卻....
非常冷漠
他應該是把我的話,當真了
現在,有簡訊,會懷疑是你
但,我想我們不見面更好,
不是嗎?
如果,你選擇了這樣的對待
我會配合

現在很鬱悶吧!

我不能确定
是否你曾经注意
我的眼泪流在透明的水里

2009-09-22T22:30:00.003+08:00

外面下著雨 , 開機發現,有個簡訊
問我,要不要出去
我說明天還得做工
他說,沒關係,我送你去送你回
但是外面下著大雨
沒關係,我駕車
然後,還有他的2位朋友
他們就駕車到"BEN & JERRYS"
吃冰淇淋=)
然後,呆在那一會兒
就送其中一個朋友回家
就在那裡,有個大壟溝
他就帶著我去走走
很簡單,
這可是第一次喔
他對我這麼好
就算他是個很糟的男孩
也許,有一天也會穩定下來吧.
然後,又倒回終點
送他朋友回家...
早早說要到Punggol end
然後再問我一次
我要!!

到了海邊,我們走到後尾
很黑暗的地方
走在沙灘上
我一直都沒什麼說話
靜靜地,看著海
很浪漫哦~~
冷冷的風,冷冷的我們
是,是很簡單
但我覺得很甜蜜
是第一次,
但,也是最後一次了

我是個很輕易就心軟的人,
很簡單的事,也覺得很甜蜜
就因為這樣,我又敗給了你!

今天,沒睡好
傳簡訊向他道謝,謝謝他帶我出去
然後,開玩笑說,I Fall For You
因為認識很久了啊,所以無所謂
但,在那一瞬間
他沒回復,
我想了想,原來是我自作多情
我突然,好想哭
是為了,經過了這麼多事
原來我還是沒學會

但他的答案,我應該明白
就算他曾經說過,別走
後來,他回復了但至少他回復了
"哈哈",
我說開他玩笑的,
真的?
可能,想看看你的反應
我正在忙.
也許,傻瓜終究是傻瓜吧

Cause tonight will be the night,

that I will fall for you.

Over again,

Dont make me change my mind?

2009-09-20T21:15:00.000+08:00

sat.

Meeted HL & LC at northpoint,

and when to eat ""Seoul Garden"

then to the arcade.

Just passing time anyway.

sun.

when to aunty house early in the morning for lunching

and I went Bugis for a walk myself

her house so near bugis

and discover my sandal is torn

when to buy new one

and found out i taken the same side and have to when back agains.

So dumb):

When Serangoon garden country club in the evening,

wanted to drink,

but kenneth mums dont let.

And when to ktv.

Sing "朋友" with kenn cause thats the only chinese song he knows

till night 10 pm.

homed,and watch Tv till 2 am.

sleeped~

2009-09-17T22:45:00.003+08:00

一大清早,就有人想謀殺我啦!!!
哈哈
就在電梯到達底樓
那瞬間,我看見一個熟悉的面孔
他對另一人說,是JACELYN
或者有其他小名
然後~
就當門打開時,
雙手比起"L"性[所謂的"槍"]
對著我"BANG"BANG"BANG"BANG"!!!!
我傻了一會,然後再小笑了一會兒
然後趁有人跟他借打火機時
就走掉了.
他說話也未免太" 那個"了吧!
他說" 打火機"沒有,
XX一隻,要不要
天啦!
聽到這,就掉頭走,所以不能說我"DAO"!!

但是,那動作也太好笑了吧

然後,到了車上,

聽到他們都中了![有4 人]

每人$1000!!天啦,

都怪我昨天有duty.

不然,可能,我也會==

真是的,最近我好像變得好快喔,

明明就有好多事要做,

但現在,可以閑得看看書,聽聽歌了

正在閱讀,

屈辱

DISGRACE-

2009-09-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

好難受 , 總是不能說出口
一切或許有一天應該都結束了
每一天都是逞強,我發現我一點也不堅強
但我該這麼結束這一切呢?

我不懂得,這么做最好的決定
但我想你已經做好對你自己最好的決定,不是嗎?
你知道的,我不會打擾
但,你卻選擇.....
你不會知道是你,但也沒關係
現在,我這麼做
或許是最好的
他們可以在我背後說我什麼
也不重要了
如果有一天,我消失了,真的
那一切,都結束了...

2009-09-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

.

這幾天人生成為毫無意義
這麼辦?

2009-09-11T21:06:00.001+08:00

那天,等電梯,等了一會
就覺得怪怪的
趁還沒到達底樓時,我馬上掉頭就走
不出我所料,
在那一秒鐘,來不及想些什麼
也不知為何,就這樣

2009-09-09T22:44:00.001+08:00

收到啦~
很猶豫的,在想
我該去嗎?
一個月前,就在decide了
其實是決定"一定不去的"
但那時 , 我告訴了其中一人
我不會去的 ,
如果我去....他肯定"酸"我的!!
但這次,我不明白為何
我不想去,是害怕嗎?
哪我到底害怕些什麼呢??
又沒不想見的人,更沒有想見的人
So tell me , should I or should I not ?

2009-09-06T14:35:00.014+08:00

像"風箏"一樣斷了的線

2009-09-03T21:30:00.002+08:00

在記憶中找你

也許並不困難

但始終你再也不是記憶中的你
了~

2009-08-30T18:21:00.008+08:00

本來啊,約好到海邊去的
但,天空又哭泣啦!!
計劃就泡湯了~
結果"阿姐"載我到"PS"去
到了"spotlight"買了白色的窗帘
再到"daiso"買很多東東.
現在已把窗帘挂好,好純潔的感覺喔!
照片也全挂上了,
對啊,還買了蠟燭
夠浪漫了吧.=)

約好下星期,再去
最好最好別再下雨啦
給我個機會再到那兒嗎
聽聽海浪聲,因為我是屬于大海的
不是啦,我不是海底動物哦,
哈
只是好想回到我曾經擁有過的那種感覺
把最後一滴眼淚滴進大海
嗯
那為何到海邊滴淚?
不是啦,被海水噴到啦 ):-

2009-08-28T20:55:00.001+08:00

我現在的心情,
難以形容...
算不上難過,但也開心不起
想哭,卻又哭不出
笑,更不用說
發脾氣,都忍下
或者只有一句話能形容
"低調"

我看啊,我總說些有的沒的,
你看了不膩,我說的都很悶了
哈

從七月一號起,天空就開始猶豫了~
幾乎,每晚都下大雨
凍得我要死
在被窩里發抖
然後,風大到~替我把門關
而且是很大聲那種
害我跳起來,
哈

2009-08-27T23:00:00.000+08:00

我想我太自以為是了,
但缺乏的是自信
結果太了解自己
卻害了我自己
一樣的作不了決定
一樣的放不下心
一樣的還是一個人獨自承受
哪一種傷心.
做人嗎, 應該樂觀點...
其實很矛盾吧?
我是說我...

[一直在犹豫是否将他忘记, 一直在徘徊爱与不爱的边缘;
" 怕爱了忘不掉, 怕不爱睡不着 " 在一切犹豫不决时 ,
怕早已陷入了这场爱情的旋涡!

不想与他失去联系,
可他的话在一次让我下定决心的离开他,
一个不懂的为别人着想的人,
还有什么可留恋的!
放弃吧!
一份也许原本就不属于自己的缘!

学会放弃你会觉得曾经的美丽,
学会放弃也许还会有份美好的回忆,
决定放弃吧,
一切的会好的,
决定放弃吧,
时间会证明你的决定是对的!]

PS : 如果有個像王子一樣的他,
再次出現,
我肯定不會再為了一個白痴放棄他
因為,為了個白痴,放棄了那王子
是件很愚蠢的事
而我就是哪愚蠢的人.

2009-08-26T19:51:00.001+08:00

情人節快樂 =)

2009-08-25T20:02:00.001+08:00

当初握着你手
其实不想让你走
在一次一次邂垢中生命有了追求
在分手的时候
爱就象风一样的远走
但是真心还是换来了
你无情的放手
经历苦与痛
伤心的苦痛
我的心被你挖走
是你给我痛
让我无心痛
爱情被无情夺走
我再一次流泪
心死的眼泪
换不回你的温柔
从此我最后
所有的温柔
在也不想再付出

明顯的是你比從前快樂了

有些事情你在瞒着我

你终于还是开了口

淡淡一句还是朋友

那祝福的话叫我如何能够说的出口

过往的欢乐是否褪色想问你怎么舍得

不要在耳边再说你会想我

2009-08-16T19:36:00.001+08:00

我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻
不准问值不值得

我的快乐会回来的
离开不是谁给了谁的选择

非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的
我心要换你的真的
不行那么只得放了

放了......
忘了......

2009-08-15T20:23:00.008+08:00

或许那天我没遇见你，我就不会那么轻易的爱上你
或许那天我没认识你，或许今天的我，心里就不会在想你
我想，我真的错了吧！
很多事
第一步，就错了
我自己走错了，对吧！

我该往前走的，因为没"事"是能往后退的
虽然我很想，

“爸“说过的，
”要拿得起，放得下”
没听懂啊！！！
没用的你，学会了吗?
李美燕，加油啊！

我对自己说的，
事情既然那么无情，
我就再也不会回头了。。。
应该踏出第一步，
属于我的第一步

就像第一步，
第一次，为你掉眼泪
到最后一次
这些不可能重演对吗?

2009-08-14T13:47:00.007+08:00

或许我真的错过了很多机会，
也或许那些都是不属于我的机会，

时间好快，好像已经两年了
但我还得等多三年耶
这两年，过客都是不小心路过而已
哈

但却没有一个能让我心动的
说甜言蜜语也好，都无效
所以我就以为。。。
很白目啦！

其实这些都不是最重要的
爱不爱对你很重要吗?
因为对我更重要的是，
不是只有两个人快乐，
而是，在你们快乐的同时
身边的人都快乐
因为，
很让人难过的就是，
你自己受了伤，
还到处伤人，
我不明白你要的是什么
也不能给你些什么
很郁闷。

当然不是要你为别人而活
也不是要你不能快乐
而是为什么你总得让那些人伤心离开
然后自己得到幸福
这就叫“值得”吗?

难道，要你幸福，快乐
自己牺牲，哪人才是真正爱你的人吗?
是应该好好想一篇了，
不是吗?

或许我想的，说的都很无理头。
因为你从来，没给过我一次机会，
说我想说的。

Anyway, I was damn sick now.
Sore throat , flu , cough
and now worst till cant breathe really well.
And how I wish someone got me a "凉茶"！！
keke,because I got it for someone
and now i myself need it.

2009-08-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

哪一种温柔，有过一次就够了。

2009-08-10T18:00:00.001+08:00

黄鸿升- 不屑

事情如果那么简单那就好了
想让自己不见
瞬间就统统消灭
人类如果没有心脏那就好了
受伤不会流血
悲伤也不会流泪
不需要有同类
传染颓废
不需要愚昧的尊严
不需要去偷窃你的思念
自我安慰
就让我伪装
我嘴角不屑
让孤独乘以更孤独的两倍
允许我保留我最后一点点特权
赦免我想念你的心碎
如果我眼神里闪烁不屑
可能我心里一半地已经残废
那一半跟着你走远了的那一天
这一半渐渐地瓦解
事情如果那么简单那就好了
想让自己不见
瞬间就统统消灭

我只是世界上物种绝种的绝类
悄悄的失眠了一光年
如果我还有一点点不屑
那是我自己虚荣心在作祟
自以为或许有一天我们会重叠
我可以再爱你第二遍

-新加坡好像没得买耶，
天啦！

2009-08-09T14:26:00.000+08:00

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出等不到天亮
所有回忆抹去却并不容易
生死由天决定不要太伤心
在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我永远爱你。

2009-08-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

狂哭

2009-08-07T21:24:00.001+08:00

找了几家店，才找到的丫
虽然不是很贵的东西，
但是希望你们有留意到
给宝宝的礼物，因为是我小小的心意啊

2009-08-04T20:47:00.007+08:00

谁卑微了承诺
我積攢滿海岸的花為伱守候
伱卻在背后没收她给的温柔
不要再对我说以後

是我沒有你要的成熟
我會學著慢慢看透
曾以為我們的愛會很久很久
請原諒我不能陪你走到最後
算是我任性的要求

知道你也在等我開口
這就是你要的自由吧.

是種肯定,還是結束的開始?

2009-08-02T20:55:00.000+08:00

再多的承诺也没用

那天啊，他们就说到某某人

对女生说话好像能把天上的星星摘下

送她一样。

然后他对我说话，就这么样

我就"吐"他

你也能摘星星啊?

然后摘下的却是Honey Star！！

所以啊，能摘下星星也没用

有钱更没用。

突然想到，就写了

其实啊，是想吃才想到的吧。

2009-08-01T18:50:00.002+08:00

Finally -

如果会有那么一天

你终于回到我的身边

带着你一身的疲惫

依偎在我的胸前

我紧紧挨着你的双肩

看着你那憔悴的脸

这么多年不在你身边

苦了你我的红颜

可不可以爱你今生到永远 ?

All the same ,

He went out of the lift and

open his eyes wide and stare at me

and i stare back

for awhile

then he smile=)

So cute isnt it ?

the hunks of policy keep calling
but I didnt answer !!

2009-07-30T20:36:00.002+08:00

当你沉默时，全世界却在哈哈大笑，你知道这种感受吗?

2009-07-28T17:06:00.000+08:00

为何说再见?

2009-07-22T21:19:00.001+08:00

你答应我的你都记得
但是我却忘了你的承诺
?

2009-07-21T21:10:00.000+08:00

"我"不是你们想象中坚强！

2009-07-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

你像个小孩的回答
我却像个傻瓜的祝福你。
你这么也不告诉我
你说我告诉你理由，你就告诉我答案

不明白，不明白为何你不告诉我
但我还是先知道答案了
我记得他说，你会等我啊?
我说：没意思，等一个不爱你的人对吧?
No point waiting for someone who dont love you , right?
但他说我有说过我不爱你吗?
Did I say I dont love you?

好欠扁喔！
也不知道他有什么意思

哈哈，我还告诉他我祝福他耶
要久久啊，好替他开心=)
但他一句话也没说，谢谢更不用说
不是在讽刺你啦
但真希望你也能找到快乐啊！

但我却好像又失去一个常逗我笑的伙伴了耶???
或许他不会再来电，不，是肯定
没关系，这样对那女生也好啊。

但这么感觉怪怪的?

2009-07-19T20:30:00.004+08:00

我真的很希望我的"王子"快点出现

他一定会带我走

不再让你们再欺骗我

所以我可以痛了再痛

你也可以错了再错

但到最后

转身调头走的人还是，

只有我一个。

我一直退，一直退

就只希望

至少你们会对我比较好

一点点而已，

也没关系

也许我错了吧。

你们这么会啊

就算是施舍，也不可能吧。

但不需要施舍。

谢了。

或许应该离开的人是我，

或许一切都过去了，

或许顺其自然吧！

2009-07-18T20:24:00.001+08:00

为何你说谎我却受惩罚
我可以痛了再痛
你可以错了再错
不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承诺
为什么连谎言你也刺破
为什么连谎言你也不说。

2009-07-16T19:27:00.006+08:00

2009-07-15T21:04:00.001+08:00

Like "I WILL BE BACK". He's back~

2009-07-14T20:56:00.001+08:00

今天啊,都是差一點點~
差一點 , 就被熱水燙傷全身
差一分鐘,就得困在電梯里.
好幸運嗎~

2009-07-13T20:21:00.001+08:00

是你,又是你
再次讓我如此舉棋不定

2009-07-12T01:26:00.000+08:00

退三步只是心知,也是一種長進

2009-07-11T16:21:00.001+08:00

我是個很有心機的女孩
所以很抱歉,
把你們都推開

2009-07-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

以為已走出陰影
卻發現原來還在原地,
的黑暗中

2009-06-08T21:01:00.003+08:00

東西是那麼的不完美
對著鏡子也只拍下半張臉
雖然有瑕疵
但對我而言
沒有

i dont think it's worth it , you said

24 march -

2009-06-07T18:41:00.008+08:00

After decided not to answer your calls anymore

after the 6 times

I still answer

That was pathetic .

I wait the whole afternoon,

didnt eaten anything

3 pm you said you see doctor first

then till 6 then you called

said , have you eaten when earlier on you said around 2

I said I waited the whole afternoon

so good I waited for you

asking me to bukit batok now

and I said I waited you haven eaten anything yet

and now gastric pain .

Its already four days

and now they fool me and hurt me

my stomach.

My hundred is gone
I was so broke yet I lented someone

because I knew that

when he really needed to lent , he was really broke

that the reason

People always said I was too kind to be bullied
Too silent ,
and no matter what kind of shit your all did
I dont take it to heart

Stupid -

2009-06-07T00:59:00.005+08:00

alright , I know Im photo genius -

one eyes staring -

Alright ,he said "Sorry" after that night

because he kept his phone in the locker.

The next day afternoon , he called

and ask whether Im free at nights

but he didnt call at night

He said "sorry" again because he came out too late

And yesterday he called ,

asking me to make myself FREE on saturday night

I said alright -

and

I waited till night then he message wanted go out

tills tomorow morning

and then waited another 2 hours for him to call back

and he said there's no car ,

dont wants me to so ma fan take bus there

And I dont even know where he bringing me earlier on

"Sorry" , "Sorry" , and still "sorry"

Just tell me what you wants me to say ?
By not hearing your sorry
And I could only say "Its alright"
actually , Its really alright
but just cant get off those kind of feeling
I dont know you did it on purpose or making a fool
or maybe theres really that reason
should say piss off
Because I hate boomer
Maybe , I shouldnt blame you at all
because you said sorry

"If " there is next time you will to ask me out agains
I should have not
But I will tell you the reason ,

有没有人曾告诉你我很爱你 -

当火车开入这座陌生的城市
那是从来就没有见过的霓虹
我打开离别时你送我的信件
忽然感到无比的思念

看不见雪的冬天不夜的城市
我听见有人欢呼有人在哭泣
早习惯穿梭冲满诱惑的黑夜
但却无法忘记你的脸

有没有人曾告诉你我很爱你
有没有曾在你日记里哭泣
有没有人曾告诉你我很在意
在意这座城市的距离

2009-06-03T21:31:00.005+08:00

everytime you ask me to call you back

I wont

you said tonight wants to bring me for ice-cream

and ask me to call back

call back and you didnt answer

I knew it , anyway I hope so

now you boom me

you wait & see.

and I discover I got nothing to said to you

nothing

I didnt know why i cant speak to this people

anymore , you see

because they are never serious ,

kiddy-

Last time ,

I hope times flies to three years later

But now ,

I hope's time will go back to 3 year ago.

2009-06-02T20:47:00.003+08:00

Now I didnt answer he's call anymore

Not for any reason

But Im so sorry

He didnt call last night but this morning

and didnt utter a word about him

but Im tired of the way you talk ,

even thought you maked me smile

i know you are bore , real bore

but this isnt the way

Because I grow up -

But did you ?

Anyway ,you still remember you have

something with me for months

and you are being busy to take it from me

like you said we will have dinner

but no we wont.

2009-05-31T15:12:00.004+08:00

That been long that he called ,

Im not waiting for his call either

But times make me doesnt want to talk to him no more

As usual , he would ask where am I

and said that he have been busy.

He said he would call me later
I never wait . And he didnt

Few hours later , "he" called , ( another "he" )

accuse me that I "偷吃"

And I ask when did I ?

he said dont know ,

I when out with some other guys ,

In my mind , I was thinking

I know who he's saying

and he said that guy taller than me

and he said his camp mate saw us

and he said we hold hands -

being silent is best to not admit things that are un-true

or trying hard to said alot that everything are not true ?

no , I mean I didnt silent at all

but I wasnt explaining myself at all too

But I said , who said it ,

so disguise ,

which egg said it ?

and he said he dont know

and I have been repeating disguising and asking who's the one's.

Till he said , I was kidding

First , he's said he dont know the person , his camp mate then he was kidding .

But the end , I told him

just now he called,

And he was like piss off and said why did he called you

and was like jokingly said he wanted to snatch you izzit ?

I said he called me to ask where am I ,

and he said , ask him go die lar.

I knew who said it but Im not asure,

I mean someone told him he when out with me once maybe ,

this small matter doesnt matter me at all ,

but it seems a matter to you

真的, 就像忘了談戀愛

是什麼感覺
是什麼時候

2009-05-28T20:47:00.002+08:00

原来

今晚的我会是如何入睡
原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语

我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹
原来
说故事也要像是真的
可是别触动那些回忆
今夜你说了最后一句
一句话掉一滴泪
看来今晚的我很难入睡

dream of you , you're back

that moment

you passes me , like a stanger .

2009-05-26T22:39:00.004+08:00

Saturday night , you called
after so long ,weird
asking me for "Joei" blog
And I said who is Joei ?I dont know her?
And by repeating alot of times
And by answering alot of times
You become so fierce and said , you dont know I slap you
And I said , you ex-girlfriend ?
He said yar lah , I dont know
ok,bye
After awhile , he sent me a message
Sorry , call wrong person.
lol

2009-05-25T22:07:00.005+08:00

You hold my hand tight last night,

and today ,

I hold your hand tight , and sing for you

But tears never fail to be around my eyes.

My phone was not on ,

and receive your one and only message ,

the only person that message

by just calling me.

I didnt reply.

And you called in the morning ,

and you ask why didnt I on my phone ,

you called the whole day , liar

you said you misses me , liar

and I reply , cause I never on the phone

and apologise.

You came , you told me

And you called me just to tell me you goes off , bye

so sweet .

2009-05-24T13:00:00.002+08:00

我難過
但你難過比我好幾千培
你的不捨與執著
我卻只能說我難過

現在的我,
腦海一片空白
我很不舒服 ,
我很不只在 ,
我睡不好 ,

沒人會明白的

生日快到了

但以後 ,
我再也體會不到當年的那種快樂
雖然我當時還小,
但看著照片 ,
我是快樂的.

2009-05-21T21:53:00.002+08:00

Eight then wake up for work , I was so late

Last night , when you know Im already sleeping

But ,you still misses 3 calls

Today , you sent a "Morning" message to me ,

and the last message he sented , was a word ,

"Morning" too

It's going 10 and your brother ask me for movies

But I was feeling very tired ,

Or I should say ,

Till now , Im only willing to go out with you

2009-05-20T22:48:00.004+08:00

"愛于生命"

的愛情故事
-
不要用我的愛來傷害我
, 你心中完美的愛情故事

Today , he ask me this.

Answer me honestly ,

Do you like me he said ,

As in Like ,of course I do

I likes everyone who treats me good

how long But I didnt know.

After that I ask him why did he ask ,

he said cause interested.

But I told him ,

Dont worry ,

And he said ,he has never been worry before,

So kiddy question ,

So cute .

2009-05-19T23:05:00.002+08:00

好害怕 -

2009-05-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

Vicky -

Evelyn -

2009-05-17T23:27:00.002+08:00

He called at 2.

And ask why Im not sleeping at that time,

and I said I just reach home,

He complain which guy I went out with ?

And I just returns from my friend wedding

And He ask when Im going to marry him ?

I said you haven even proposed.

And he ask the same question agains.

So kiddy , so cute

He's so annoy when he ask for night kiss ,

and I ask him back.

he said wanted to bring me out

Waited him the whole night ,

till I fallen asleep,

he said EVENING

and his EVENING its night time,

when he called , Im already sleeping.